Hike. on Aug 24th.
I went on an amazing hike today. my boyfriend and I did the whole thing, it was so exciting and fun. the light in the trees was stunning and there were so many different kinds of ferns to adore. it was quiet there, if you listened, you would hear a bird or two calling out and singing or the sound of the soft breeze through the trees. We had a picnic at the end near a cliff, over looking the seemingly never ending ocean. the way back was rough up the hill to the car, with each step my heart pounded harder and more sweat dripped down my face. it was great when we finally got to the top back to the car. it felt so real, so right, so important to my soul to be with nature and be in touch with my body and everything I’m feeling, the pain in my legs from the climb up and the fresh air in my lungs and the love I feel for this handsome man who so lovingly walks this beautiful earth with me and the love I feel for my own body and the love in my heart for the plants and the animals and the dirt and the rocks and it made me worry that maybe they do not know that I love them so much. I love planet earth, I love nature, and I hope I can somehow show how grateful I am.
I feel like everybody needs to slow down and really enjoy life.
Sometimes I feel really sad, because my boyfriend never got me a Birthday, Valentine’s day or Christmas gift this last year. Idk, I find it odd that those kinds of things are important to me. Why does it matter. but idk, it really does. I really want somebody to get me something now, maybe that would make me feel better. I feel like I need to make up for it in some way. like there is a little whole bc he didn’t get me anything. I always get so excited and get him goodies. I love giving him things so much. I have friends who’s boyfriends do the same thing.. and us girls don’t get it.
I’m feeling quite loved, I’m feeling important and like I matter. I’m feeling so much better then I was not to long ago. I’m feeling that I am worth making time for, and I feel appreciated. <3
I didn’t get a work out in yesterday or tonight. and then I stepped on some glass a little while ago. I am going to try my best to stay positive and think good thoughts, I’ll do my best to keep up on my workouts and fitness, and make sure I am eating and not being too hard on myself. I need to love myself everyday. <3