I decided that I’d take a break from the bars and drinking today, I’ve met some awesome people but all the drinking is unhealthy for my body and my wallet.
stop waiting and go make it happen they say, and it’s so true, get up and make it happen! don’t just wait and wish your life would change.
Today I ended up doing more then I thought and some of those things were, putting up the price tags for one of my art shows going on right now, took care of all my pets and held my rat, went and got an application for a job and got a Volunteer form to help out at the animal shelter, I got shit done today and the day isn’t even over yet!
Gunna get in a work out tonight, had to wait till it cooled off some. still have sand in my air from the beach last night. Wowza, what a great time at the beach.
I just want someone to hold me while I cry about nothing and say “ooohhhh it’s okay, I understand, poor baby” because I am on my period and I feel alone and emotional.
I have been pushing myself with my work outs, I have been pushing myself to wear different clothes, sexy and cute things that I really want to wear but have been to shy about in the past, I have been making plans with friends and pushing myself to get past my anxiety, I have been doing my best to take my pills on time, I have been trying to get my feelings out instead of holding them inside, making sure people know how I feel and not freaking out, I have been working more and pushing myself by taking too jobs in one day, I have been thinking more about my dreams and reminding myself that they are scarey but not impossible and I will be taking steps to make them happen and act on them.