I don’t want anything in the whole world but him. I don’t know what to do. this hurts more then anything I have ever been through. I feel crazy. I lost the one person in the world I want to be with. and I’m just waiting for him to be ready to talk. my body feels like giving up. I wish I could just go away. stop feeling. stop being. Because He loved me, and we were good together, we had problems but who cares. now I’ve lost him forever and I will never for give myself. I guess he will be moving out soon. and then that will be it. I will probably never hear from him again.
the worst is having a dream where someone loves you and you can practically feel them touching you and it feels so real and then you wake up and it’s like the life is being sucked out of you and the happiness just drains out of your body and you feel empty again